I deserve all this because I did the worst thing a woman can do. The very worst.
Jessica's wedding was like a fairytale. Her dress strewn with crystals. Her dad made a tearful speech. Her husband Matthew declared himself the luckiest man alive.
But when their beautiful baby girl is born, Jessica is gripped by panic. She can't tell anyone how she feels. Even when her life starts to spiral out of control...
This is her story. A mother's story.
Head of Zeus * Fiction
02 Jul 2015 * 368pp * £7.99 * 9781781856604
REVIEWS
Prowse handles her explosive subject with delicate skill... Deeply moving and inspiring'
Daily Mail
'A powerful page-turner'
Closer
'Uplifting and positive, but you may still need a box of tissues'
Hello
'A deeply moving and eye-opening tale about a struggling mum'
Heat
'A difficult, important and compelling read'
Miscrawl
'By far Amanda Prowse's best novel to-date'
The Last Word
A page-turner, difficult to put down, brilliantly written in an accessible style and language... I cannot speak too highly of this book'
LoveReading
An incredible, powerful and emotional story that will have you gripped from the very first page'
Laura's Little Book Blog
'Full of raw emotion, this sensitive exploration of mental illness is a real tear-jerker'
Sunday Mirror.
The evocative novel gave me an understanding of a difficult and tragic subject... Brilliantly written, the characters are likeable and I couldn't put it down'
Prima Baby & Pregnancy.
Author

Amanda Prowse likens her own life story to those she writes about in her books. After self-publishing her debut novel Poppy Day in 2011, she has gone on to author twenty-five novels, including the number 1 bestsellers, Perfect Daughter and What Have I Done, six novellas and a memoir. Her books have been translated into a dozen languages and she regularly tops book charts all over the world. Remaining true to her ethos, Amanda writes stories of ordinary women and their families who find their strength, courage and love tested in ways they never imagined. The most prolific female contemporary fiction writer in the UK, with a legion of loyal readers, she goes from strength to strength. Being crowned 'queen of domestic drama' by the Daily Mail was one of her finest moments. Amanda is a regular contributor on TV and radio but her first love is, and will always be, writing. You can find her online at www.amandaprowse.com, on Twitter or Instagram @MrsAmandaProwse, and on Facebook at: www.facebook.com/amandaprowsenogreaterlove